I am nothing

Music plays everywhere and all in between

I am lost in the moment

I am me

try your everything

nothing compares to me

Sometimes I just cry. 

 Because.

I am alone

I am ugly

I am discarded

I am lonely

I cry for the lost,

the shunned,

the fucked,

the fucking broken hearted, 

I cry for you and me

 the crazy,

all the shit inbetween.

I am not everything i wanted to be.

two

Each very different, but one of a kind

Growing together like a vine

Laughing and laughing and laughing

until arguement time

Yelling and hitting, glared eyes, and mad!

But, loving, protective, best friends

two of you make one

brother and sisiter united

always keep that

always

can't

its not fair that you get taken right to the heart

shy cries for him.

Can you handle that?

I can't.

I want to scream

I want to fucking screammmm!

I want him 

He is dead

I can't have him anymore.

You

You take over my body

my mind is crazy

My heart beats and beats

I cannot breath

Somebody save me please

Fix what is wrong with me

I am insane

uncomfortable in me

Up late, trying to get my shit straight

all mixed up as usual and can't find control

I just want to lay my head down

I just want to lay my head down

I can't remember the last time I played my guitar

I hate you for dying

for ignoring me and changing your phone on me

you expected too much

I just can't give

I have these two kids

you know

you fucking KNOW!

This shit is my diary.