I feel so sad

you are always mad

you stomp around and slam doors, you are always mad

I want love.

I want warmth

I want 

what is empty

done

jesses love

I love you, baby.

From the first moment, 

I felt not good enough.

You were so big,

You were so rough.

You were...real...

You actually wanted me,

you wanted my body,

you kissed me
you whispered to me

I melted

I fell for you,

I cry for us all the time

you and me and everything

I was only a young girl.

you an me

we just were

we just fucking were.

everybody has a fate

i live

you die

grrrrrrrrrr

i'm coming, 

right behind.

I am nothing

Music plays everywhere and all in between

I am lost in the moment

I am me

try your everything

nothing compares to me

Sometimes I just cry. 

 Because.

I am alone

I am ugly

I am discarded

I am lonely

I cry for the lost,

the shunned,

the fucked,

the fucking broken hearted, 

I cry for you and me

 the crazy,

all the shit inbetween.

I am not everything i wanted to be.

two

Each very different, but one of a kind

Growing together like a vine

Laughing and laughing and laughing

until arguement time

Yelling and hitting, glared eyes, and mad!

But, loving, protective, best friends

two of you make one

brother and sisiter united

always keep that

always

can't

its not fair that you get taken right to the heart

shy cries for him.

Can you handle that?

I can't.

I want to scream

I want to fucking screammmm!

I want him 

He is dead

I can't have him anymore.